User blog comment:TrustyPistol/What Do You Use Your Powers For? Do You Use Them For Fun?/@comment-6005647-20130722071423

That reminds me of the days when I started doing psionics. The first abilities I practiced were EM, umbraK, hemoK, cryoK and energy leeching(which I considered different from EM at that time). Well, everything was extremely fun at practicing, mostly because somehow I managed to do stuff, like a visible umbraK ball. That were neat times, when doing things without realizing or understanding was lovely. Well, years passed, experiences passed, and the past 2-3 years I got lazy. The past 2 years I got more into reading and understanding, and magick. Now, from a more mature perspective, those abilities are nothign but part of an occult philosophy, they lost their fun, but not their wonder.

I think it's a matter of personal philosophy. Whether we see fun in it or not is clearly linked to our experiences, which if they aren't fun, or they are related to serious matter, the childish-wonderous (and superbe) perspective is lost...more or less.

The serious people who actually do something are often the ones who lost all the wonder, so just by resuming their experience, they might leave a small trait of that not-so-fun experience. It's more like a matter of innocence in the craft...you lose it eventually. Of course, as said above, some still keep the lovely innocent perspective (and can still keep the serious approach at the same time).

You don't see me practice hemoK, cryoK whatever I practiced that time...I don't blame the abilities for that, I blame me for forcing myself through this.