Thread:NotSomebodyThatsWho/@comment-33575406-20171122234603/@comment-33751329-20171123165959

I appreciate the thought, Gac, but my entire delve into the psychic world was an experiment to begin with. I wanted to know how something widely considered fake had gathered such a dedicated community, much less a kind one that did not attempt to force its ideas on others. I did have some great evidence at one point, where I made a small energy gatherer in my room. I told it not to take my energy, yet a few minutes later I became incredibly ill until I left my room, where I felt better. I then disassembled the gatherer and no longer felt sick in my room. That was an incredible experience, and reinforced my belief. I knew that losing a great amount of energy could result in physical exhaustion or illness. Later on, I began testing things without the psychic preparation. I could just see auras on anybody in front of a white board, trying or not. My friends could as well. I could convince teachers to do certain things... about half of the time. "He'll say this. Oh, he didn't say it, I must not have tried hard enough." I could make psi balls and objects. Even without energy, without rooting, I was able to envision a ball between my hands and my hands felt it. This is a similar experience to being in hypnosis and being told to feel something. In hypnosis, it's a trick of the mind, telling the body it feels something that is not actually there. I dare not fall back on the placebo effect, as I know that can be a bit of a heated topic. However, many of the things I experienced were things I was told I would experience. I remember reading the small warning on the energy construct page way back when, that detailed the effects of an energy-draining construct on somebody. I remember taking it to heart for a while, then forgetting it somewhere before I made my broken construct. This small advice I read may have been the reason behind my illness, not necessarily the construct itself. I can find just as reasonable scientific evidence for the phenomenae I experienced as I can find psychic evidence. I wish it were not the case, but as my schooling continues, I find this to be more and more so the case. My yearning for a magical world is immense, but my realism knows that the odds of such a thing going undiscovered except by a small group of believers is slim. This is the argument that cults provide, that you would be one of few who know the truth. This is how conspiracies develop, that some people believe they've found a huge flaw of logic in the events of the past. Human beings have a desire to be part of an exclusive group, but that should be supplemented by a healthy skepticism of just what said group entails. I apologize for the lengthy paragraph, and again if I seem to be attacking you or the psychic community, that is not my intention. I only wish to explain my exit from this community and how it made sense from my point of view. Thank you for listening.