User blog:PsykJames/"We would be torn apart"

Hey guys recently I made a blog about how me and my friends we're planning to run away, but now I must say that as much as we wanted to we decided not to follow through on those plans.

It was last night I had just finished making dinner, I was cutting a cake and my mom out of the blue told me something " I just want you to know that if you weren't around we would be torn apart, we need you as a member of this family" I 'm pretty sure the universe was trying to tell me something and was speaking through my mom. That's when it hit me, I really am needed. Without me there would be no order in the house, if i wasn't there to give my auntie her diabetic shots everyday she woud be dead, and if i wasn't there to help my mom with her high blood pressure she would be in the hospital or dead, and without them me and my cousins would have nowhere to go. Without me my family wouldn't be here in this house or alive. My cousins can't be depended on due to irresponsibility, and so everyone's always on my case because I'm all they have.

Upon that realization I had a strange mix of emotions. I was disappointed that I couldn't just leave my family to fall apart, touched by how apprecoated I am, and still am a little shocked by how important I am to maintaining the balance in the household. I have to admit that I am a tiny bit angry that I can't just leave and travel with my friends like I planned I mean, my friends and I put a whole lot of thought into this we've been training and conditioning ourselves to deal with whatever we may encounter since mid 2012. I mean I have to say it is very fusturating that all that work and planning was for nothing but at least we're alot more fit and educated and have alot more skills and knowledge about the world than the average child. On the flipside like someone on this wikia said I think that there was a 50/50 chance of me and my friends surviving out there and despite what some of you may say I genuinely belive that we could have made it, but it's not about whether we would have made it or not. It's about my family I've been so absorbed into what me and my friends had planned that my priorities got thrown out of whack. Even though I may live in a really bad area, and my family isn't on the law's good side, and thing get a little chaotic every now and then, and may not treat me or my cousins right at certain times, family is forever. Don't get me wrong, I really would have liked to travel and see the world with my friends, but what really matters now is getting good grades and supporting my family, and who knows, maybe when I'm an adult and have a really good paying job, me, my family, and even a few of my friends will visit some of those places on our list.

Now, to all you other teenagers and kids out there. As a wise psion once told me it's good to follow intuition and you heart, but also keep in mind that even though friends are important and we all need them, family comes first. So before you and your friends, or maybe just you decide to pack you backpack and set out on the journey oof your life, always remember you may be alot more valuble than you think.

Peace out ya'll!