User blog:GumBall123/I am possessed

So, yeah. The title says it all. I have an inner demon possessing me and controling me since I was 11 or 12. I wanted Jason to come to chat and talk about it yesterday, but that little bastard wasn't online. So, it all starts with visions. My visions are, and always where frightning and scary. I am thinking of something, I am concentrated on something, and in for one second, a frightning ghost with a horrifying scream just appears instantly in my head. That happens just at night. And many many times. Then I have some psycho-messed up dreams. I know you all had bad dreams, but mine are HORRIFYING!!! Like, one time I dreamt my grandparent's house was burned down and destroyed, and my grandparents along with it, then I came in the house to see...Some shit, then I find my grandma just sitting on the chair dead. Like, burned, raped skin, with a skeleton coming out and all covered in ash. I mean, I can't even explain how terrible it was. And, of course, I have more dreams like that. The next thing is that my inner demon is controling my fear. Every fucking night he makes me think just negative, just about the worst possible things, you know like: if I see a scary video, I think just about that all night, even if I'm not scared the first time, then I start to think that demons are in my room, etc. And last but not least, he sort of controls my body. He does retarded stuff, like, when I was riding my bike, my body just wanted to go right where the danger zone was. So I gone right, then back to not fall, but my body just wants to go right, and it does, so I fall and broke my rib. There are lots of different variations of this physical activity, like time over time, my arms just want me to hit my self. And, most of the times I can't control it, I hurt my head, my stomach, and it just goes on...And on...AND ON... Now I know what you are all thinking: OMG gumball's pussy, he can't control himself, just complains...Well, actually guys, I can control myself over time. My fist wants me to hit myself, I just say no. And, well, this isn't such a big problem, though. When I have these scary visions, that scare the fuck outta me, I just ignore them, because I know that they cannot harm me. The only way to kick the shit out of that motherfucker in me, I guess is just go and try to do exomantal projection. So, not a big problem, except over the time, it makes me look like a retard.