PsiWiki:Chat/Logs/15 June 2014

 [11:51]  i want to kill myself... [11:51]  WHAT WHY [11:51]  becuase im suicidal [11:52]  Oka I did [11:52]  rejoin the chat then [11:52]  :P [11:52]  and lesami why [11:52]  lesami if you kill yourself youll get reincarnated [11:52]  because im socially excluded [11:52]  and that could be anything [11:52]  plus im not the most social person either [11:53]  i literally have no friends [11:53]  good for you im not you so dont apply yourself to me [11:53]  i think she's being ostracized because of her gender identity [11:53]  no, im not, people just dont like me [11:53] <Okamiden12> oh [11:53] <Okamiden12> okay then [11:53] <Jonas.g> and whys that [11:53] <Lesami> i dont fucking know do it [11:54] <Lesami> *do i [11:54] <Jonas.g> did you reveal your a witch [11:54] <Okamiden12> youre* [11:54] <Jonas.g> do you cross dress [11:54] <Lesami> if people cared about that i wouldnt wear a pentagram on my neck, i meet more wiccans on the bus then any other religion through random chatting [11:55] <Jonas.g> ok [11:55] <Okamiden12> oh my [11:55] <Lesami> no i dont cross dress, i wear normal womens clothing or unisex wear [11:55] <Jonas.g> ok [11:55] <Jonas.g> good [11:55] <Jonas.g> do you talk abnormally in any way [11:55] <Lesami> good? what do you mean by good? and abnormally? meaning? [11:56] <Jonas.g> are there any lisps accents besides a british accent tha you talk with [11:57] <Jonas.g> *that [11:57] <Lesami> no, [11:57] <Jonas.g> ok [11:57] <Jonas.g> good good [11:57] <Lesami> stop saying good as if im fitting sdome sort of check list of acceptability [11:58] <Okamiden12> Lesami idk why they don't like you [11:58] <Jonas.g> fine theres a thing ive been wanting to test out [11:58] <Jonas.g> its a energy magnet sorta thing my aunt does [11:58] <Okamiden12> i know that i like you [11:59] <Okamiden12> :D [11:59] <Jonas.g> it promotes good energy rather than bad [11:59] <Lesami> its not good, that i dont cross dress or have a certain way of acting or thinking, nor is it bad, its just who i am, and maybe because i have aspergers and that makes it hard to socialize with me, moreso people dont want to socialize with me and secretly hate me cause im paranoid and socially anxious to the level of a major disorfer [12:00] <Jonas.g> lesami i know someone in my town with aspbergers and he needs help but i tell him be nice try to start a friendly conversation control your tone [12:01] <Jonas.g> control the loudness of your voice [12:01] <Okamiden12> ~sigh~ [12:01] <Jonas.g> control your stress and relaxe [12:01] <Okamiden12> she can't "Relax" [12:01] <Jonas.g> relaxing is the most important thing [12:02] <Okamiden12> her social anxiety and paranoia make that almost impossible to do in a social situation [12:02] <Jonas.g> i dont know ive tried everything [12:02] <Jonas.g> i just cant help [12:02] <Okamiden12> obviouslyh [12:02] <Jonas.g> i dont know what to do [12:02] <Jonas.g> i honestly dont know her at all in order to understand her social problems [12:03] <Lesami> jonas, tell me to relax when you can prove to me that all the irrational fears i suffer day in day out are not real, tell me to relax when you remove every social, emotional and mental trigger that causes a daily panic attack, tell me to relax when you fucking understand what aspergers syndrome, and an anxiety disoerder do, [12:04] <Jonas.g> i..... [12:04] <Jonas.g> i just......... [12:04] <Jonas.g> i cant remove people [12:04] <Jonas.g> i cant cause lonliness