Thread:Hour Glass/@comment-24306346-20141202183551/@comment-25842010-20141203193753

You didn't intrude. At least not to me. And thank you. I don't know if I am ever going to get there to be honest, although I am trying. So I suppose that's better than nothing. I haven't really been seeing light. Especially lately. And this path that I am on, it's only going to get worse with what is coming. And I may really want to give up. Hell, kind of already want to, to be honest, although as much as that feeling may be there, I do realize that I have to fight it. Or at least I should. And as much as I hate saying that. I'm still doing it. I know I probably sound pretty weak right now, and maybe I am, although, I don't have anyone that I can really confide in, you know? Yeah I've got friends. Sure. Everyone does. Although, by definition. No, I really don't. Some people say they are my friends yes, although when it came to my time of need, no one was actually there. Morbid? Maybe. I try. I really do try. It's so hard. But I try. I do what I must to stay alive. Even if it means sacrificing things that I love. I do what I must to make others happy. Even if it sacrifices my happiness. I chose this path. Whatever happens is my fault. I chose to make others happy before myself. So if I am unhappy I am the only one to blame. So technically this is like my fault.