Board Thread:Questions and Answers/@comment-77.162.172.235-20150501090903

so once upon a time 4 months ago I was hanging out with a monsterly looking guy I had met a few weeks prior. monsterly looking goes accompanied with a monsterly sensation in this case! so we were having beers and smoking doobies in the bar until he started behaving aggressively and taunting me. so finally I got mad and at the time I had no idea about what I was doing so I extended my hand and started messing around with his inner workings. I had encountered some kind of pyramid facing down, some sort of flat square and on top of that a pyramid facing up. anyone know what this is? oh and I drained him of almost all of his energy leaving him unable to move or even scream in the process. somewhere half way I stopped and he started telling someting about believing in god so I drained the rest of him and set his mind to going home and he went home. after that I met him one more time and he said that he is rooting for me in some sorta way. I don't understand what was going down and that was the very first time I actually did anything directly with my energy and other than this situation I've only even seen an aura once and I couldn't even see in colors.. just gray like mine.

so on this site I learned about leeching by accident and I'm getting an idea of how empathy and shielding works. I still don't understand the pyramid up, block and pyramid down.

at the main energy page there is a blank space about energy and emotion. I can fill in on that! extreme anger seemed to spark me into some kind of killing mode and enhanced my empathy to the point that I simply no longer had to ask permission to take what I want/need at the moment. there is some training to be done so I can control my own mind some more so no more accidents will happen. I also learned about construction and programming by accident. I learned that you can just poor any emotion into any power you have to have it make rise in power. this trick can also work exactly the other way around. if you feel unaccustomed to anger, for instance, this will put you down harder than a depression for a moment while toying around with energy. the feeling of love can be used to heal or passionatly suck someone empty with the happy ending reserved for you! sorry, that last bit was kind of evil but that's just how love works sometimes. don't ask me why.

with a certain emotion in mind and the knowledge of 'extra' power/possibilities you will it to power up your own system (partially). somewhere on this site I read about people.. scanning for anger? you make up what they're up to. if you choose to feel all the anger an entire room or park has then you are already absorbing it like you are at any other time except now you focus on it and make it your own before exploding in rage. emotional explosions can carry large amounts of energy, especially with pent up emotions that most humans and some animals have learnt to hold. so if this balloon explodes, which can actually be tricky to accomplish, you might feel anything ranging from relief to crying and laughing at the same time. you also might go insane if you don't push it all the way through as it makes quite the freedom in your mind and the truth is harsh. this can also be a way to unblock yourself if you feel that all of your training is leading you nowhere or without any result. there is a basic safeway into having a 'emotional explosion' without any chance of harm. use alchemy. collect a bunch of signs or symbols that you like, fashion some kind of drawing with all the things that you like and make it go the way you want it to. I'd like to call this a controlled emotional outburst. our emotions are pretty powerful and very hard to understand so the thing here is to just simply have no fear at all and keep walking the way of your heart as it will always bring you to the right places for you to be!

I can't write for shit but this last bit is the best.

emotions are pretty much little sparks of crazy in your brain and crazy gets the job done! also, don't be afraid to tell yourself that you are a full human with all the human traits. if you happen to be a psycho with no remorse or guilt.... focus deep within and find your own unique way to care for and be with humans! usually crazy people just talk a bit different but if you pay close attention then you just might build the bridge you need to come in contact with someting in yourself that you hadn't encountered yet or forgotten! crazy in my brain just means more experience to gain and we all got crazy baby!

So the main points.

1. energy is prone to be manipulated or enhanced by intense (partially) controlled emotion.

2. high mind development can help into making the burst more controllable or sturdy.

3. this is a baby-like state of mind in which your own purity defines the result. you can go rambo and re-make the adrenaline system (poisoning yourself in order to not die) which is like, dying to live, or you could pamper yourself and constantly just drink milk and heal.

4. imagination is still important! should this tool be left without support or nourishment then you'll feel like shit. I know this because I have a huge resevoir of energy but not the development of tools needed in order to use it as I wish!

so this is it kinda... keep happy, keep helping and mind the number of yes and no per day.

andrew 