PsiWiki:Chat/Logs/21 June 2014

 [11:21]  Must be a long paragraph [11:21]  im scared i might be on the starting blocks of an eating disordr... [11:21]  Don't be [11:21]  Thinking off it will make it happen no matter what [11:21]  jordan, think before you speak [11:21]  yeh [11:21]  les, you're a beautiful woman [11:21]  *hugs les*.Awe,Sorry I really do not know what to say at all. [11:22]  T-T [11:22]  if it were so easy to rid myself of such thoughs i would have done it, and please, oka, do not lie to me [11:22]  why would i lie to you? [11:22]  you're one of the few people i actually like and respect on the wiki [11:22]  ^ [11:22]  ^ [11:23]  a white lie can help a person feel better, a persons affections can cause a lie, i know for a fact i am hideious [11:23] <Okamiden12> :/ i disagree [11:23] <SuperEliteJordan> ^ [11:24] <Lesami> and why is that? [11:24] <Okamiden12> you ARE beautiful [11:24] <SuperEliteJordan> Cause your not hideious [11:25] <Lesami> dont lie to me, stop lying [11:25] <Okamiden12> i'm not lying [11:25] <SuperEliteJordan> ^ [11:25] <Okamiden12> jordan ... [11:25] <Okamiden12> go sit in the corner [11:25] <SuperEliteJordan> * SuperEliteJordan sits in a corner T-T [11:26] <Lesami> for a child prodigy, jordan, you seem to lack the skills of speech, please, if you are going to involve yourself, say something, ditto marks illegitimze everything said [11:27] <SuperEliteJordan> Ok [11:27] <SuperEliteJordan> I'm just .... [11:27] <SuperEliteJordan> How do I put it [11:27] <SuperEliteJordan> Socially akward? [11:27] <Okamiden12> you're just awkward in general "3 [11:27] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> wait a sec [11:27] <SuperEliteJordan> T-T [11:27] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> if you know youre hideous whyre u telling us for [11:27] <Okamiden12> -pats jordans head- [11:28] <Okamiden12> -feeds him a carrot- [11:28] <SuperEliteJordan> I love carrots how did you know! [11:28] <Okamiden12> -_- [11:28] <Okamiden12> i'm good at what i do [11:28] <SuperEliteJordan> (Explosion) [11:28] <Lesami> as am i, i have currently 3 disorders related to social interaction, even i can speak to a complex degree, and calgary, its a disagreement to the original statment and an expression of my depression uponb the first steps of a potential eating disorder [11:29] <SuperEliteJordan> Ok I'll talk normally then [11:29] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> i have an eating disorder and even i can speak with better grammar than you can! --- is basically what you just said [11:29] <SuperEliteJordan> *facepalm* [11:30] <SuperEliteJordan> (Facepalm) [11:30] <Lesami> do not twist my words, [11:30] <Okamiden12> She says what she means [11:30] <SuperEliteJordan> I have to agree with lesami [11:31] <Lesami> to twist one's speech is to delegitimize the meaning of their speech, the statment you have made ignores several more important points and abridges less important ones to show a negative light upon myself [11:31] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> a lot of times i come here lesami you tend to have an emotional breakdown [11:31] <Lesami> i am an unstable person [11:31] <SuperEliteJordan> Aren't we all in some way unstable? [11:31] <Okamiden12> no [11:32] <Okamiden12> :| [11:32] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> but you can still control your typing [11:32] <SuperEliteJordan> I might have to go soon [11:32] <Lesami> no, jordan, many people are very stable, however, its best for me to talk about this in the only social space i have, over slitting my wrists over and over again [11:33] <SuperEliteJordan> Yeah this is a better space then slitting wrist [11:34] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> -_____- [11:34] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> oh where will i find my wife in calagary [11:34] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> my online expression for dios mio [11:34] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> no one can help u if you dont want help people give you [11:35] <Lesami> and if people offer that which does not help? if people state basic prases weithout any legitimization leating my paranoia reiddled mind in a state of constant quaetioning? [11:36] <Lesami> it is simple to say accept the help that people give you, it is harder, when on one it dosent help and on two the statments feel hollow and it only drives you deeper into suspicion [11:36] <SuperEliteJordan> Sorry got to go [11:38] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> if we're unable to help us and you know that [11:38] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> why do you always have emotional breakdowns here? you can go see a psychiatrist or psychologic [11:38] <Arro Yunora> Then why do you constantly dump your problems on us if no ones advice is good enough to help you. [11:38] <Arro Yunora> Shit at the very least no one ever says anything bad about you. Only you do and when anyone says otherwise they are lying. [11:38] <Arro Yunora> That's a really fucked up process you got up in your head when it's the ones who want to help you's fault and not the one shutting everyone off or down. [11:39] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> im not trying to sound rude i mean, they can actually help you you'd be surprised [11:40] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> when you tell them your problems you feel so good getting it off your chest and expressing yourself [11:40] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> thats one step. [11:41] <Arro Yunora> You know who's the real liar in this room? [11:41] <Arro Yunora> It's you Lesami. Months and months of this suicidal insecure bull that no matter what anyone says is rejected. [11:41] <Arro Yunora> Then you switch gears instantly and pretend you never even said those awkward speeches of depression and suicidal crap. [11:43] <Lesami> do you consider why i do not belive possitive comments about myself? [11:44] <Arro Yunora> I haven't spoken about it in awhile cause i'm just so use to you saying it every single day. But I hate seeing you attack everyone that doesn't deserve and of that shit. [11:44] <Arro Yunora> You are a rude, asinine individual who doesn't deserve to treat the world as if you are the most unfairly mistreated soul to be cast the misfortune to be stuck in a mans body. [11:44] <Arro Yunora> There are way more people more deserving of all the optimism everyone gives you here on the site than one person who doesn't like their body. [11:45] <Arro Yunora> You need to face the fact that that isn't at all anything to be depressed about, it's the ccards you've been dealt with. [11:45] <Arro Yunora> And no matter how much you pay to get a full house will never change who you are. [11:46] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> lesami's a guy who wants to be a girl? [11:46] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> explains the vibe i got off .. him? [11:46] <Arro Yunora> Lesami is a guy going through a surgical procedure to change his appearance to be a female. [11:46] <Okamiden12> um [11:46] <Okamiden12> ... [11:46] <Okamiden12> lesami is a girl :| [11:47] <Lesami> *her, the pronouns to use is her [11:47] <Arro Yunora> Nothing more nothing less. [11:47] <Arro Yunora> It won't actually make him a female, yet it's the only thing he is fixated on [11:47] <Okamiden12> :| [11:47] <Okamiden12> arro [11:48] <Arro Yunora> I'm not sorry for anything I said. Lesami doesn't deserve anything for rendering himself to such a disgraceful state. [11:48] <Arro Yunora> He has the power to become the happiest person he can be but chooses the weak way out in blaming the world any his own genetics for being unhappy. [11:49] <Arro Yunora> That's fucking bull shit. [11:49] <Lesami> use the correct pronouns, please [11:52] <EinsVanCat> .. [11:52] <EinsVanCat> ehm.. [11:52] <Okamiden12> yeh [11:53] <Okamiden12> i was praying for you to come [11:53] <Okamiden12> like hard core [11:53] <Lesami> i asked her [11:53] <EinsVanCat> no, thats gonna land him something. Just from what I read. [11:56] <PsylockePsion3> Hello [11:56] <Okamiden12> ohai c: [11:57] <Lesami> this isnt a safe place, [11:57] <Wherewillifindmywifeincalgary> its a chat room of course its safe [11:57] <Okamiden12> :/ [11:58] <EinsVanCat> Not when you have someone fuckin blowing up like that its not. [11:58] <Okamiden12> there wasn't an emotional level to describe how pissed i was at arro for that