User blog comment:Arro Yunora/Does Psionics exist?/@comment-86.26.243.229-20160831075904/@comment-29527260-20160912205413

I really shouldn't get involved in this chain, as, at least how I read it, it seems subtly violent, but--- The reason I don't upload any videos actually IS because I don't want there to be much basis for the public. I'm not comfortable with that for my own reasons. And I am 100% okay with someone believing or disbelieving in me for what I say. If I truly feel I can show someone what I can do, I'll show them, but I won't expose myself as a freak of nature to any person to look over at via the internet. This isn't normal for people. I can write all I want without getting attention to myself, but if I really am compelled to make videos, to force people to know the truth, oh yeah. They'd know me.

Also, I don't want to help every person that wants to learn. Why? Doesn't matter. My knowledge, my choices. I learned through my own experience and I will entrust whoever if anyone at all with some of my knowledge. I will trust some people. I won't trust others. It's not selfish. I worked for what I know, it wasn't simply gained by watching a video then refusing to share a link. If they work for it, then that's different. Seriously. I'll see a person and if I see a reason to not share my experience, I damn sure should have that right. Putting out a video is for all of the public, not simply who I choose.

That sounds seflish. That probably sound really really selfish. "Simply who he chooses? Who does he think he is?" Eh, well. My knowledge, my work, my art, my life, my experience. Sharing my experience is sharing myself and I'll share myself only with the people I want to share myself with.

It also shows my identity, I'm that much less anonymous.

I do share knowledge with people, but only enough where they can never be certain that what I say is true unless they truly get into what I've gotten into. Then they'll know. I share just enough so if some random stranger passes by, they can think what they want. I don't want to completely flip someone's life that has no reason to be flipped. Why is this my choice to make? Because we're talking about sharing myself. I won't be harassed for information if only these people really know what I can do. I'll put a little out, and when they see themselves getting somewhere and see light in what I say, then they'll know.

Also, I didn't use others experiences to help me learn (though now I occasionally watch Michael Grubb because he's cool), but if someone can reach out for help from others, then that's a plus, but it's not at all required to learn. I'll share my experiences with the people I choose to help. I'm not lazy for not uploading videos, I just spend time working elsewhere. I wouldn't be able to do what I can do if I was lazy. I may eventually upload videos, but not now.

I want to help, but I'll help who I want to help how I want to help. I don't want to prove myself to others. I don't need to waste my time proving myself: I know what i do and I see it every single say. I don't need to be validated by putting out the effort to turn every skeptic. I don't care if every skeptic now believes because of me. In fact, I would definitely not want this. I want to help where I can, I really do. I'll help those with an open-mind to what I do. I won't help those who refuse to learn. I might give some tips, but... I'm not going to waste my time. If you put out a video, it'll be seen as a hoax anyways. You'll get hate. Until you go too far. It's not worth it. Annoying comments, harassment, and people thus wasting too much of their own time. I'm talking about the people who are then so convinced they try themselves, but never can get what they want. They keep trying. They never learn. Not everyone can learn. They could be doing something better. These are the people who endlessly try without success for so long. Do we really want to convince so many people and prove ourselves where they know about what we know, just to drive them mad?

How much are we willing to share? Prove ourselves to 50% of the population? Prove all disbelievers wrong? Why? I'll help most people who reach out to me, maybe try to convince them a little if they don't believe, but I'm not going far enough to reach out to random disbelievers and force-prove myself. It's not worth it. Kind of asking for trouble if you ask me.

I'll share with who I want and share in the way I want for whatever reasons I may have.

Tl;dr - It's not worth it to make a video. If it's to prove to disbelievers, they'll just say it's a hoax. Even if they don't see it as a hoax, I'm not going to rile up complete strangers because reasons.

Sooo.... yeah. That's me. - Kai

P.S. I'm open for rebuttle as long as we keep things peaceful. I'll also clarify anything that needs to be clarified.